Rain, Lasor shows, and adventurous nights.

(Downtown Seattle- no I didnt take this picture)


So the Seattle rain begins. I listened to the rain all night, soothing if I were able to sleep. There is a window in front of my computer, so I've been watching the rain fall on the leaves of the trees. Pretty, but I feel cold.

Friday night two of my girlfriends and I danced in the rain. It was 12am, and we just saw a lasor show that was to the music of TOOL- it was a fantabulous experience. We were so cold but we didnt care- everything was so funny, our joy dominated anything else. Unfortunetly it takes away our common sense sometimes, and we ended up throwing a couple cupcakes at a car full of asshole guys. Their car was white and we had chocolate cupcakes. Haha. Funny, non-the-less. (No worries, we were driving opposite directions- and no we didnt hit their windsheild. It was on the side of their car). Fun times.

Yesterday was okay. I took one of my closest friends (Alex, fellow cupcake thrower) to the airport because she's moving to California with her idiot of a boyfriend. I'll miss her so much. Then I visited the Starbucks I use to work at, and two of my favorite co-workers were there off-duty. So we talked for a while. We're having lunch today as well. Heck yeah.
I also was alone at the front desk at 24. I was so nervous, but it ended up being no big deal. Saturdays are RIDICULOUSLY slow. My boss didnt care what I did, so I got a chair, a book, and a smoothie- and read pretty much the whole time. Yay, I can do homework at work!

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I'M GOING TO SEE 'JIMMY EAT WORLD' OCTOBER 11TH! WOOHOO! I'm so pumped. I will show up five hours early so I can make sure I'm first in line. I want to meet them. I've loved them since I was 14 years old. YAY! And my kick ass co-worker Corey is going with me. He's also a personal trainer, so I feel safe. :)

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Joy.

Euonym.

I thought that title fit. *haha- get it?*

Or it's just me.

I'm so super tired. I've been reading so much and work today WAS SO SLOW! I tried so hard to start conversations with people, but no, they actually wanted to work out. How dare they, right? ;)

I dont have anything interesting to say.

I just felt like posting something.

Tell me how you are doing.

Loves. :)

FALL!

So- school.

I think I'm going to be pretty happy.

My first class (American Studies) is actually going to be very cool. We'll be listening to music (jazz, blues, modern), watch really cool movies (Bladerunner, Platoon) and read kick ass books (Great Gatsby, Going to Meet the Man, Ceremony, The Things They Carried), and I know the discussions are going to be interesting. My teacher is young, funny (in a odd way- but I dig it), and knows what he's talking about.

ASL 201- My teacher is deaf, 30yrs old, and attractive. Oh yeah, and he's hilarious. However, I have not yet met a deaf person who isnt funny. (No, not all of them are, I'm just lucky). I'm just relieved that I didnt forget everything- I was really nervous about walking into an advanced class and being the fool. I feel comforted knowing that my fellow classmates feel the same way. :)

Astronomy: Again- cool, hip teacher...he knows what he's talking about...I'm actually interested. It's really just the fact that we're in a planaterium that makes me happy. :)

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Work: good...besides the fact it was kind of nuts. Everything happened at the same time.
I was counting out my till (I still need help with that, it was the second time I had one), the hot tub emergency button went off, two customer accounts were red screen (which means there is something wrong with their account), and another customer wanted to pay for a new membership (we only have one till, the one I was counting out of). My poor co-worker had to do everything- she was flustered. All well, what could I do? I didnt know what to do. *shrugs* Whatever.

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I should read school-like books now.

♥

summer? :(

My first day of school is tomorrow.

Am I excited?

No.

*sigh*

I dont even have ASL. It's only on tuesdays and thursdays.

So I have an awkward two hour break between my classes.

8:30a -9:20a American Studies (sounds okay)

11:30a -12:20p Astronomy

On tuesdays and thursdays: 10:30a - 11:20a ASL201

AHHHH! AND I'M SO NERVOUS! What if I forgot so much sign language that I have no idea what's going on?

It's going to be okay.

I wont be the only one.

yay.


My goals for this year (education wise): Dont drop any classes, get (at least) B's, and no procrastinating. But the main goal is to not drop a class. Ah.

I want to do well. I want to go to a University. And, unlike my brother, I dont want to take three years to do it.

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Tonight was awkward. My best friend Maria took me to meet this guy she's "dating", and we went out to eat. Even though the guy is super cute and friendly- it's ALWAYS werid being the third wheel. Especially since Maria is very physical. She wont make out in front of me, but she kept kissin' him and she loves making sexual references. I mean- I do too, but it's always weird when *I'm* the third wheel. Know what I mean?

I work over the next few days, though. I'm excited for that.

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So much to do, so much to see- but it wont happen unless I make it happen.

It's just the journey to those points that's always complicated.






Bye, bye, summer.

Success

Tomorrow will be my thrid day at work.

I love it.

24 is SO fun, most people are VERY nice (the not-so-nice ones are rarely by the front desk, so I dont care), and I just like it. Apparently I'm doing surprisingly well for a newbie, so I'm proud. :)

But I still go to Bally Total Fitness (on my days off, of course). I know, it's silly to have two memberships, but hey, Bally's is closer to me, I dont want to drive out of my way to work out.

And school starts monday. I'm not as excited for that... the only thing I'm looking forward to is Signing again. I love ASL so much. oh joy.

*sigh*

tata for now.

Super cool feelings. :)

I'm so tired, but so fullfilled.

Something my friend Kayla and I have been planning for two months happened today. I thought it wouldnt happen, but it did.

Today was the begining of a change. We changed some perspectives, we opened some eyes, and an impact will be made.

What am I talking about?

Well, firstly, I'm apart of this awesome non-profit organization called 'The Harry Potter Alliance'. It's dedicated to using the examples of Harry Potter and Albus Dumbledore to spread love and fight the Dark Arts in the real world. Sounds corny, I know. But hey, in reality, there are SO MANY Harry Potter fans, and if we get together and fight for justice- who knows what good can happen?

So today Kayla and I hosted a 'Save Darfur' awarness party. We had some fun talking about Harry Potter, but then we gave a presentation on the genocide in Darfur, and what we can do to help. We called our Senator's representatives, made a video where everyone spoke to the camera saying why we should save Darfur (we will be sending that footage to 24hourstodarfur.com ), and discussed how we are going to have future meetings and what we can do during those. It was so satisfying. I know I made a difference today. Every little step we take is helping. It takes one person to make a difference and start the wagon going. WOOHOO! SAVE DARFUR!


---It's funny. I have NEVER been involved in anything politacal like this. I hated politics (still do), but I also know that this is what I want to do, and I'm passionate in making sure I make a difference. That's what I want do to. I'm excited. I've been filling my brain with knowledge (it's overloading) about our Government. Now, it's not a lot- there is a lot I dont understand. But it's a start.---

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I FINALLY had my orientation yesturday. I believe my OFFICIAL first day is early next week. It better be. I'm so damn excited to work at 24 Hour Fitness (from now on, I'm just typing 24). I WANT TO START! I WANT MY SHIRT AND NAMETAG! ARG!


AND AND AND: Super cool feeling. For the orientation I wanted to wear my usual dress pants and polo shirt. I just grabbed black pants from my closet, not really looking at them, I pulled them on and buttoned them perfectly. After that, I realized that I grabbed the wrong pair of pants. It's not that they're ugly- I just havent worn them since I was 16 years old. Why havent I worn them? Because I couldn't. I grew too big for them. Well, NOT ANYMORE!
I feel so good and happy right now. The only thing that is keeping me from perfect happiness is lack of sex. But I'll get over it.............................................................. I WILL!

DAMN STRAIGHT!

Yay for accomplishments! :)

My Oh My

It's funny how I was a Caretaker at a farm and trained people ages 10 and up (mainly 10-15 year olds) for seven years, how I was a camp counselor at a six grade camp for two summers (junior and senior year of high school) and I tutored kids for two years at a Domestic VIolence shelter. You would THINK that I like to babysit? That I even like kids, right?

Definately not.

I liked working on a farm in general, and since I was their boss, the young teens had to listen to me. When I was a tutor, I was only there for an hour, and these kids were really mature and neat anyway. Counseling was okay, but the second trip I was pulling my hair out. Tonight, I remembered that I HATE babysitting. Even though you cant expect nothing more than 6 year olds to be prissy, snot-nosed ignoramouses- I just dont have much tolerance.

Patience is one of my big faults. I wish I had it, but I'm too impatient to work on having patience.

I hate babysitting, and I dont like little brats. GAHHKJFLKASDJFLEJFOI;REFJHLJKR.

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La, la, la! OKAY. I'm fine. *dusts shoulders off*

I watched the movie 'I Think I Love My Wife' with Chris Rock. I forget how much I love that man. He is SO funny. I just love good comedians in general. Some of my personal favs: DANE COOK, Robin Williams, Chris Rock, Jim Gaffagin, Demetri M., Jon Blue... so many.


Laughing makes you feel so much better. :)


♥

The Victoria, Canada trip...

...wasnt long enough! My mom and I had so much to do and so little time! We had a great time. Oh, what did we do?

* Went to Buschard Gardens (I'm sure I spelled it wrong, but....all well) It was gorgeous!

* Visited the butterfly house. They were flying all around us! It was like we were in a fairy garden! So pretty...


* I bought two bottles of wine (one for my mom and one for me). Because, you know, I was old enough in Canada.
~Oh, and it was weird, they didnt ask for my ID...probably helped that the guys that sold it to me were my age...haha~

* Had High Tea at The Empress. The tea was delicious- it's only made for that hotel- and the little snacks were nummy.

* Saw the Titanica exibit. IMAX, museum, the works. We even received these passport cards that told us the name of a person that was actually on the titanic, and at the end of the exibit you found out if you survived or died.
*My name was Eva Light, I had two children, we were third class. Me and my kids lived, my husband died. aw.*


Yeah, so we walked the whole time. Our hotel was close to everything. We shoped, ate, and drank. (I'll just say: I hold liquor much better than my mom. haha) I loved it. We both wish we stayed an extra day. all well. :)




Here is another 'poem' I wrote. It didnt have a date on it, so I dont know when. I DO know it was a long time ago. It feels incomplete, but I like it like that, because... some things are just incomplete. :)


Whispering romance in my ear,
Your fingertips glide across my neck.
The heat is intoxicating,
wrapped in you, we savor our addiction.
I taste the wine on your lips,
I'm captivated.

Deep in your eyes, I see longing.
But on the surface, there is pity.
In a whisper, you said 'I love you.'
Liar, liar.
Wine is lingering on my lips,
the glass scattered on the floor,
my senses have chilled.
Chilled.

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Cheers! ;)

Movin' On.

Ah, big day.

My brother, Matt, is moving to Central Washington University. A sweet two hour drive.
And his little sis is helping him move. How nice am I?

I'm going to miss him. Matt and I get along really well. It's going to SUCK not having him here. Usually my parents leave me be and bother him with his life. Now all of the attention will be on me. Fuck. I'm not excited.
But one thing to be happy about is when I visit him on some weekends... His friends think I'm super cool and like drinking with me. *YES!* Oh, that's one thing to look forward to.
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Tomorrow I start work at 24 Hour Fitness, AND my mom and I are taking a mother/daughter trip to Victoria, Canada. We're going to see the Titanic exibit, she's going to take me to the bars, and we're going to do some sight seeing. It's going to be amazing- and a wonderful adventure that I get to blog about when I get home. :)

Have a great weekend, everyone, I sure know I will. ;)

A Fine Frenzy, indeed.

She is lovely. The songs 'Almost Lover' and 'Hope for the Hopeless' matches all the things going on inside me perfectly.
A Fine Frenzy
www.myspace.com/afinefrenzy

This day has been long.

All day I have been sitting in a cozy chair in my backyard with a book in my hand to keep me company.

The sun is bright, and there are no traces of even a little puffy cloud.
Not only is the sun warmer, but the sky is bluer, the grass greener, and the smell
of flowers in the garden is unmistakenly sweet.

Am I healing?

Am I saying "goodbye, so long."
That (so it seems) I am.
There is hope for the hopeless. :)

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One, Two, Three,
How will I come out to be?
Four, Five, Six,
Tea warming up my finger tips...
Seven, Eight, Nine
My mind and heart will soon align.
Last is ten
The end.

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*giggles* I laughed as I was writing that. Cheesy as hell, but whatever, I like it anyway. It makes sense to me.

I dont do poetry, really. I love reading and listening to it. But my talents lie in rambles.
♥

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"Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go."
-- Author Unknown

"If we deny love that is given to us, if we refuse to give love because we fear pain or loss, then our lives will be empty, our loss greater."
-- Anonymous

"Don't think about how weak you are — think of how strong you're going to be."
— Michelle (Berry) Dougherty